Things have never been so swell...

IMPORTANT!!
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IMPORTANT!!

So, to cut to the chase:











Now.

I think it's all getting to me, finally. It's almost staggering.

I've been a cynical person, always said the worst possible things about human beings as a species. But I always felt that down below there was something decent about them. That maybe we all just got a bad wrap. Maybe if we just chill, respect those in the community, try to help out and share a laugh here and there, there can be a balance, at least for a little while.

But now, I'm not so sure. I mean, seriously? Some rich fucker who flaunts everything they have, gabbing on and on about their prized possessions and whatnot, I could see a reason there. But that's still not an excuse. I've tried to be humble about my accomplishments, about the things I've earned and built. I never saw a reason to put them out there in people's faces. And I thought "maybe, just maybe, this is a saving grace."

Oy.

But it's gone, material items with sentimental values and old trinkets of what I used to be able to do and photos of friends and conversations and accumulated knowledge. But, I'm smarter now, and the loss will be prevented, at least on the level of data.

Chaps my ass.

Am I a violent person? I think I am. I search craigslist for my shit, I find a post title that seems like it's my items, and I shake. My heart starts to beat like it always did while sparring. I can feel everything course through my veins and slide into the center of my brain. Instant adrenaline rush.

But the action is stayed, and the pulsing eventually subsides.

Oh well. As long as it's controlled.

To those worried:

I am alright. Well, I will be alright. I'm a bit depressed, but I'm coping alright I think. I have my hat, my dog, my girlfriend and a few packs of cigarettes. Everything will be fine. I know some of you are worried to the point of exhaustion, but please, for my sake, relax a bit. I know I'm partially the baby of the family, but I am an adult, I think? I'm going to find a new place to live. I'm going to reinforce the god damn door with some metal. Eins and I and the remainder of my possessions are going to be fine. I am safe for now and am being cautious. I love each and every one of you, but please do accept that I'm going to be O.K.

There's nothing to fear. Just work to be done.

Thank you for all your help. I'd be worse off without it.

This won't be happening, sorry: