I shall become as if I never was.
To fade, to not see anymore.
I know. Keep that in your mind always.
I know.
When you study the click drag shuffle step, you understand what makes a person.
Misery and lies in most.
When you hear the soft tapping of feet biting at your ears, can feel the dejected soul of another before they pass, realize what is truly in someone's heart when they walk through that door, understand the hesitation in their breath.
To live. Is the propagation of pain not ingrained in each of us?
To show the truth behind the eyes, to overwhelm one feeling with another, to allow a person to drown in what we have created. When the air we breath is acidic, when the sun scorches the only beauty we could find, is this not a kind fate to offer to another?
Call and response, as if we are children lost in this world. "to be"..."Or not to be".
"I love..."
Is it an echo back or is it something delivered with trust, truth, triviality?
Mechanical, almost, how we pause and stare and mutter to ourselves about what we truly are.
I jump, to reach, to attain, to change, to bring something better to two hearts that have not had.
But do my feet leave the ground?
To the hesitation in your....
To the question in your...
To the resentment in your...
To the new...in your...
I know.
But it does not change the fact that I need to hear
what is hidden.
What no one wishes to speak.
I know due to my ways. My study and logic. My experience.
Everyone is the same. So why try to hide it from me?
That alone keeps me awake right now, unable to have even the music and the sound of my rasping breath lull me to dreamless sleep. Vulgar thoughts running through my head. Occurred? I think so.
I know.
Give me what I know. From your own lips. I think I deserve that much. There was a promise...remember?
It's been 5 days since things have changed.
What happened? I know. But in your own words, that's what I seek.
To drown.
To sleep.
So that I may fade from vision, from mind, and give you what I know you desire.
